Wednesday, October 5, 2011

God speaks but are we always willing to listen?

God's been doing some really awesome things in my life! So last week the speaker spoke on the character and nature of God. In this time God put on my heart to do a DTS equip. (which is a secondary school that teaches you to lead outreaches ..) I would have to leave my home (San Francisco) yet again for two more months. It feels like I just came back from two months over seas and now I'm leaving on another outreach in November for three months and God's trying to tell me to leave yet again for two more months.... come on God , I live here now!!! I have an apartment. church , friends and a community here. Well it's not all about me. God spoke to me during a lecture about sacrificing and giving something up to serve the Lord. Right then and there I felt like God was saying give up you " rights" and where I call you is your home. WOW... did that hit me... it was like the speaker was talking to only me!!! I gave my "home" up to God right there and then and went and told my directer , Steve that I was interested in the DTS equip. He was very excited and later told me that he's been praying for me and hoping that God would put that on my heart so I would be the one that would want to do a DTS equip. The next day I went out to coffee with my other Leader, Jason. I shared with him what God was speaking to me and how I am interested in doing a DTS equip to further my knowledge on how to lead DTS'. He was so excited and said that he had been praying for me because he wanted me to start LEADING outreaches to Thailand next Fall and that the DTS equip would help me and was a conformation to his prayers.
It's so amazing how God works. I am still blown away by all of this. ....but wait there's more.....

Steve pulled me aside later that day and told me that him and Jason talked and how he was really excited that God was speaking to all three of us about the same thing. Well he then went on to say what usually happens if your getting ready to staff an outreach is to lead a whole week by your self overseas .....That's kinda coming up in NOVEMBER!!!!! So, I will be in charge of planning the whole Vietnam part of outreach , flights,transportation, living arrangements and all of ministry and then for a week I will lead it by my self. I am really nervous and kinda scared by I know God's totally got my back.

It reminds me of when Moses took his people out of Egypt and when they started crying out to God when the Egyptians were coming after them. God said why are you standing there??... I've got your back , go forward!!!!! That's how I picture it, Gods saying I have your back just GO FORWARD!!!! I guess I'm in shock that all of this is happening so fast and all I had to do was trust God and let go of the things that I needed to give to Him...
This week we are reading about Joshua and Caleb how they had faith to come back to Moses and say we can take over the promise land... we can do this... and the 10 didn't want to face the giants and stay where they were content.... they weren't willing to go forward and they didn't have enough faith to believe and fallow where God is telling them to go. I am really nervous about the BIG plans God has for me in leading outreaches but do I have enough faith like Joshua and Caleb to go forward and trust in God????
YESSSSSS ! I am believing and TRUSTING and its going to be GREAT!!!!!!!!!

Please keep me in your prayers!!!!
Carrianne Barr